I'm Back

I made it back to my blog after a long absence. Life keeps changing and keeping me busy. I did get my scuba certification last summer, unfortunately I have been too busy to use it yet this summer. I graduated college in May with an AAS. I know everyone has one, but it took so long I was proud to finally get it done. I am taking another class this fall, biology. I know, a glutton for punishment. Are we ever really too old to learn? I hope not. I have this constant little ray of hope inside me that if I keep working hard enough, eventually I will find out what I want to do with my life. I like my current job, even though it runs me ragged, but I can't see doing it for the next 30 years. I am classified as a dreamer. I want more out of life than just getting married, having a house, and 2.5 kids. I want satisfaction in what I am doing. I want to make a difference somehow. I wasted so many years of my life thinking I wasn't going to do any better because no one ever told me I could. It's hard to realize this later in life, and to learn if from someone other than your family. I don't blame my family for me not setting larger goals or doing more with my life. I come from a long line of laborers whose life was raising a family the best they could with very little. They were survivors and taught me how to survive when things get tough. I feel fortunate as I don't know many people anymore with that kind of information. So in my quest to keep dreaming, I wanted to start writing again and this blog was silently waiting for a breath of life to revive it. Writing helps me sort out those thoughts that twirl in my head like clothes in a dryer, a therapy of sorts. In the last couple of years I have lost family members and pets, found new insights, and lost old fears. Time moves on and if we don't evolve with it, we will get lost. I am evolving, updating my software so to speak. I am still the same silly girl, but with a bit more silliness mixed with a litte more craziness, and hopefully a little more zen.